When you live with shame from past behavior, a very helpful question to ask is, “Would you do the same thing today? If the answer is no, feel gratitude for the growth you have experienced since you took the action that you now regret. Next in your recipe for evolution is to repeat, “Forgive me, for ever thinking I was anything less than love.” Humans who do not realize they are the presence of love make mistakes. To dwell on these mistakes holds you prisoner to your temporary state of being human. To grow from your mistakes and vow to do the very best you can to express your eternal soul aspects is divine.
You are so very loved.
What i (today) could consider “the biggest mistake of my life” ((though i could be “wrong” about that) was also a time when a long noted series of guidance brought me to a much safer place in much better conditions, and with opportunities i might not otherwise have enjoyed.
Was i “tickled” about this series of events? A few, yes. Certainly not all, and in many instances brought about a LOT if turmoil. But even those instances were (now clearly) all part of a plan. (Not a plan i created in this life, though perhaps had a hand in it all before i became earthbound…).
Did i progress through “all that” gracefully? 🥴
No, but wow, have i ever learned a lot from “all that”. And THAT i do acknowledge gracefully and gratefully.