Focused

Hi Suzanne,
Like most Americans, I’m trying very hard to stay positive, hopeful and keeping my faith.
I’m truly grateful. We are luckier than a lot of people. We’ve have a few friends become very ill with COVID-19, but they we’re young enough and have recovered.
We are blessed that none of our close family and friends have been infected by Covid yet.
As a retired, critical care RN in Atlanta, I am deeply worried that no one on a national or state level seems to want to acknowledge and deal with these scientific issues directly. As a person with a science and medical background,
I don’t see this ending in our country anytime soon, because we will not deal with the facts.
I am sorry. I am not trying to make this political.
Although I see it is becoming that. I personally never understood how any of this was political.
It’s simply about science and medicine.
I see and hear of more and more people losing their lives, their jobs or careers, struggling to keep their homes and put food on the table.
On top of that, the political and racial divide is hurting so many people already affected by Covid. It’s overwhelming.
Like so many others I am so tired of being isolated. I miss my family and friends.
Then I feel guilty because I’m certainly luckier than most.
So how do we reconcile speaking out, demanding change to stop all of the bleeding.
Don’t we also have an obligation as individual souls to stop people from taking advantage and hurting so many people? Aren’t we complicit if we do nothing?
I want to be part of a solution, not a problem. I want to understand how to do this without anger and judgment.
I can find inner peace when I’m reading and meditating but I can’t sustain it.
I am a metaphysical Christian.
I know what the spiritual answer is.
I’ve been praying and meditating, asking God and my guides to help me deal with this in a positive way, but I’m failing.
I know, I shouldn’t watch so much news. I am watching less.
But it’s not in my nature to turn it off and not know what’s going on. I’ve tried.
And as soon as I see the news I’m right back where I started from.
I sincerely wish I could be like Mother Theresa or Martin Luther King.
I am obviously not there.
And I’m so angry and tired of seeing people taking advantage of others.
I understand free will and that were all on different paths;
but how do we navigate such a negative, cultural path?
I believe in the afterlife and evolution of mankind, but I have not felt so helpless and hopelessly ineffective in a long time.
I’m not sure if I should have written all of this.
I don’t mean to bring your spirit level down. I should save that for my journaling. ?
But nothing I seem to do is working.
I wondered how you were personally resolving these issues, since you, more than most have witnessed tyranny & injustice while you were in the military.
Just like in the past, when we see evil working in the world, isn’t it our responsibility to do everything we can to stop it?
How can we do both things, effectively fighting injustice while keeping our faith and peace?

Jill